As always, these mini-essays are admonitions, warnings, and encouragements to myself, to help me when the difficulties of the work seem overwhelming or when I get inflated with too
hopeful fantasies. If any of them are of use to you, the reader, so much the better.
First, an appreciation. The one useful thing I have read about time comes from Rilke's Letters to a Young Poet. He wrote, in the midst of some encouraging observations: “Time does not matter.” That's all an artist needs to know about time.
A short answer to “how long?” is “ten years.” Allow that and realize that “ten years” is simply shorthand for “as long as it takes,” and then work as though time does not exist any more for you as an artist than it will for the thing you are making.
Difficulties, uncertainties, formal and material problems, doubts about oneself and one's abilities, discouragements, lack of progress, any sense of urgency, a premature completion, and all the other conditions of self and work that will arise . . . all are answered by this indifference to time.
You are not going to have any other eternity or any other heaven than this. You are a fool to be impatient or to think that time matters.
Only the work matters. If you are working for something else [for money, acceptance, fame, some foolish idea of immortality or of being remembered] your art will be maimed. It will not be the best thing you are capable of. If you keep on that way you will drop dead with your real work undone.
So ask yourself, over and over: “Is it good enough?” Not good enough to attract money or recognition or love or any of the things you might desire, but good enough to fully realize your sensibilities. In isolation from everything else and from everyone, is it good enough? Without any other result or reward than seeing the thing itself, is it good enough? Is it as good as you can make it? Is it as good as you could make it if you had forever?
bruce macadam, 2022